My Worst Period Of Gender Dysphoria

Hello There,

    Hey friends, today I thought I'd share what was one of the hardest times of my life: when I was suffering from my worst gender dysphoria. This period took place in 2022 while working at my previous job. At this point in my life I had come to terms with my gender identity, although I hadn't been able to find the name for it yet. Despite me having a greater understanding of myself, I was in a living situation where I would be unable to dress and express my gender identity. In addition to an unfortunate living situation, the job I was working was an incredibly toxic work environment that had me and my coworkers all extremely stressed and unhappy. 

    So my home life was stressful and my work life was stressful, it was certainly a rough time. But what was the worst contributing factor to my extreme gender dysphoria? While I'm sure the overall sense of stress made it significantly worse, I actually believe it was another factor which was the primary cause of my dysphoria. At my job, we wore uniforms, with separate uniforms for men and women. There was no drastic difference between the uniforms both were polos and khaki shorts. However the cut of the women's polos was different from the men's; it promoted a narrow waist and showed off the chest. Additionally the women's polos came in additional feminine colors like pink. 

    The differences are certainly minimal, but for someone who is suffering from gender dysphoria and stressful working conditions it was something to hyper-fixate on. I was constantly surrounded by women who got to dress in uniforms that conformed to the gender, and it constantly made me feel like the odd one out. It lead me to make have quite the near miss at work to help compensate for my heightened gender dysphoria, read about it here!  I spent over a year suffering like this, constantly reminded of my own perceived gender nonconformity by all the women around me. 

    Eventually I would escape the toxic work environment that job and move on to a new much better one (now with gender neutral work uniforms). However the stress of the gender dysphoria from this time has stayed with me. It has always felt like a massive hole in my life that I never got to experience what it was like to feel like a normal "girl" at my job. I eventually found an opportunity to do so and it was among the most euphoric feeling I've ever had! Read about in part 2 of this post.

Part 2

New Fiction Story Coming Soon!

 Hello There,

    I've never been a fan of reading or writing fiction based male to female stories. However, I have a fond memory of reading a fiction story about a teen boy staying with his aunt for the summer where after ruining his clothes in the wash, he begins wearing her clothes. Unfortunately, despite reading this story many times in my youth, this specific story seems to have been deleted from the internet, or hidden somewhere where google can't find it. 

    Since I can no longer enjoy reading this story I've decided to make my own!! Although it will follow similar plot points as the original it will be it's own story! I'm calling the story "My summer with Aunt Sarah", and it features high school student Tyler's summer with Aunt Sarah, and what happens when his entire wardrobe is ruined in the washing machine.

    I should be publishing the first five chapters and prologue bi-weekly, and then I may move on to another story I've got cooking up. I'll still be publishing continuations of the My summer with Aunt Sarah story in single chapters so you can look forward to these characters sticking around for at least a little while. Not sure when the official start date will be, but I thought I'd give you all something to look forward to!

-Carly